Loss

We were hoping this post would be a happier one, but that wasn't God's plan. 

On Wednesday September 19th, we learned that our first baby did not have a heartbeat. We were told that nature would eventually step in and I would have a miscarriage. It appeared that he or she stopped growing at 7 and half weeks. I was about 10 weeks pregnant. There doesn't seem to be any other reason this could have happened except that "the chromosomes did not line up correctly". The staff at Bay View OB/GYN were incredibly kind and patient. They provided great medical care and compassion. 

The physical and emotional pain are too difficult to explain unless you have been through it. Which many people have. 1 in 4 pregnancies end in a miscarriage. I will say those who go through natural childbirth have my respect. I now know for certain that will not be me. Epidural all the way.

We decided that we didn't want to be one of those people who doesn't talk about "it". While we know personally how difficult it is to talk about, we decided to share our grief in hopes it will help us heal, not to get tons of sympathy. We just ask for your prayers of healing, both physical and emotional, as well as prayers as we continue our journey to start a family. Whether it is to get pregnant again or some other avenue. 

We would like to thank everyone who has been there for us. And for those that we are now allowing to be there for us.

God's Blessings,

Joshua and Stefani